Blessing and a Curse

Ever since I was a child, I’ve been “blessed with talents”, according to my mother. It all started when I was two. I began reading and speaking and I was more advanced than any of the other kids my age. I started preschool when I was two years old and then kindergarten when I was three. I turned four after the first few days of school and I joined dance classes: ballet, tap, and jazz. I’ve been dancing in several other genres since then, including hip-hop. 

When I was nine, I started acting at local theaters, as well as all throughout middle school and high school. On top of that, I started playing the violin in second grade and I’ve been playing the viola since sixth grade. Oh! And I sing. 

On top of all of that, I’ve had straight “A”s for as long as I can remember, I’ve been in several Student Councils, leadership clubs, and other clubs. And I play several sports, including soccer, track, tennis, rugby, and cheerleading. 

Now my intentions aren’t to brag or make myself seem super skilled. The point I want to make it clear is that having all of these talents is not always a “blessing”, Sometimes, I think of it as a curse. Sometimes, I stretch myself too thin. Sometimes, I do too much and work too hard and strive to overachieve. 

It’s difficult to do so much all at once all the time and not endure so much stress. It’s extremely difficult to deal with so much stress from school and extracurricular and then, a social life. For a long time, I didn’t have a social life. Sometimes, I still think I don’t have one. It’s too difficult to have one on top of everything.

But here’s where I start to not mind making my brain cry: I have a lot of options for my future. It’s so hard for me to decide what I want to do with my future, sometimes. But having so many skills makes it kind of fun to do everything and see what I like best. I meet a lot of people all of the time and I make a lot of friends. I just can’t wait for the day when I have one thing that I do that I love for the rest of my life and then, suddenly, it’ll all feel like a blessing.